I feel trapped. Everything is falling apart again, every time things start going right for me I fuck it up. I’m self-destructive, I ruin my life because I’m afraid of someone loving me, I’m afraid of being happy and I’m afraid giving something my all for it to just be thrown back in my face.
I can’t escape these voices in my head, they tell me that I should end it all; that’s the only way to get rid of them. I reached out for help but I regret it, now I have to talk about it. How am I meant to survive this life when all it does is throw me in a cycle of depression? I’m trapped and I don’t know how to escape.