This is all I feel right now, pain. It’s in my stomach, it’s in my head and it’s in my heart. I can’t control the pain that plunges me deeper into the black abyss. I’d like to blame anyone but myself for this pain. Unfortunately that would mean I was lying; self-destruction at its finest was right now. It’s not leaving anytime soon, so I’ll settle in my bed with a couple of books and box of tissues as the pain strips me down little by little till eventually I’m no longer me.